Yes, that’s right, I have two personalities. And according to me ….it’s normal.
I inhabit a stressed personality and then my natural personality. That is a Tara Brachism, I think. This is new ground for me and understanding this is going to help me develop the tools I need to reduce the presence of the stressed personality.
I just realized this little snippet last week when I was caught up in some ugliness w my business partner. And then I listened to Tara Brach and she clarified what I was experiencing. Never before in the history of my thinking can I remember ever understanding that I was witnessing the presence of this stressed personality. I always thought of it as the “bad” part of me and I’ve always considered it a weakness of mine. This inability to calm down, my explosive temper and the nasty things that escape from my mouth and the downright lethalness which I deliver them with.
Thats a “WOW” Moment for me. It seems so elementary ….and maybe it is ….maybe it’s something I forgot or Just needed to get reacquainted with.
In any case it’s lead me to the next topic of discovery.